How was everyone’s day?
Don’t forget to check my new video on YouTube, to see how I take my instagram photos ;) link in my bio!! Photographer @dr.jvisuals
Also if I tagged you to this post.. I just want you all to know how much you mean to me :)
I’m sorry that I haven’t been around lately guys.. I’ve had so much going on with my life and I’ve been struggling with some mental health issues. I have felt like life keeps trying to knock me down right as I begin to pick myself back up. I’m trying to be the best person I can possibly be, but it’s tough being the bigger person. Over the course of these last few weeks, I’ve let my depression and negative people consume my thoughts. I’ve contemplated suicide - something I haven’t thought about in six years - due to how BAD life has been these last two weeks. Today, I got up and decided that I’m not going to let my depression control my life, and I’m not going to let the opinions of a few family members have that affect on me anymore. I cannot simply cut ties with these people, but I will no longer allow them close to me.
Sorry, not sorry for another yellow dress appearance 📷 @aroc_photo
I brought a 30-day homeopathic cleanse kit on this trip because I decided I’d had my fair share of indulging over the past few months and considering I was going to be in a bikini for the foreseeable future it was time to get real again in the health department...
Well, I made it 3 days. 3 very lame days of constantly feeling like I was missing out on living fully in Mexico until I said “To hell with this!” and returned happily to my passionfruit margaritas and nachos on the beach.
During my years struggling with an eating disorder everything around food was so black and white. I was either being “good” or “bad.” Today, I don't want rules. I don't want to be restricted. I definitely want to be mindful of fueling my body with healthy food as much as possible, but I also want to fully experience the richness of new cultures, and for me, a huge part of that is food…some of it being very gluten and dairy and sugar filled!
It’s suchhhh an amazing relief to finally be in a place where I can truly say I’d rather get to eat the melt-in-your-mouth delicious (gluteny) churros whenever I feel like it than be 5 or 10 lbs. skinnier. There is SO much more to life than obsessing over physical appearance!
I love that I can go to yoga, eat a healthy veggie stir fry for dinner, and then get out of bed a couple hours later to go to the corner store in my pjs to buy jalapeño chips because they would make my bedtime reading extraaa enjoyable!
These days happiness for me comes from living fully, without guilt. It’s a pretty fun place to be! Join me?
With light and love,
F E M I N I S M
I am a spiritual being born into the world as a woman and an afakasi.
I have been called to reawaken the indigenous ways of healing and connection with Universe, Gaia, Goddess, Divine, Great Spirit.
I am proud of my Samoan roots and my Scotch-Irish, German roots. But neither are above my experience as a WOMXN on this earth and the resurgence of the feminine.
In life there is need for balance - yin and yang, moon and sun, dark and light. For generations now we have been experiencing the consequences of being out of balance through the patriarchy which has plagued our species, the guardians of this planet. We have been burned and scorched by the sun, not allowing the darkness and moon to rest and nurture ourselves and each other. This is the work of feminism - to rebuild the strength of women and all those connected with their feminine side in order to restore balance. This does not come in the form of being polite. It comes in the form of the Tower Card, wrecking the old to rebuild the new. Feminism happens on many different platforms and I am eternally grateful for my sisters (including my male and non-binary sisters) who fight the good fight in their own way.
My fight in feminism is in rebuilding women’s spirituality using indigenous wisdom - to unearth the tools we need as womxn to connect to Goddess and Gaia so that we may be spiritually aligned with our mission in restoring balance to this earthly experience and create a SAFE SPACE for those who follow us. :
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I’m not going to lie and say that I am anywhere near confident and accepting of this photo. I’m not. I nowhere near being in love with my body, but I’m ready to put in the work. Posting this feels like ripping off that bandaid. .
“Here world! Just look and see all the parts that I am terrified to show.”
I’ve spent nearly 35 years wishing to be different in some way. In middle school I wished to be less skinny and boney. In high school I wished to be less tall. In college I wished to be less soft. During pregnancy I wished to be less big. .
It’s time to change this relationship. .
Step 1. I’m going to stop wishing for my body to be less than anything it already is. .
I’m 6ft tall and 180lbs.
I have gained, and lost, 120 lbs over the last 7 years.
I have given birth to 28 lbs of human.
I ran a half marathon.
I’ve played 4 years of varsity basketball.
I’ve worked out.
I am training to be a yoga teacher. .
This body has been good to me and it’s time I start returning the favor. 2019 is going to be all about treating myself right. Eliminating negative self-talk and embracing who I am in the present moment. .
I wanted to post this for any woman who has looked at herself—or looks at herself now—and is disappointed in what she sees. For any woman who feels unworthy because of something that society tells her is a flaw. For anyone feeling stuck. I am with you. I am hoping that this vulnerable moment will give you a bit of peace ❤️
Really grateful to folks who trust me enough to take their intimate photos. I work extra hard to provide safety, compassion, and comfort during sessions because I understand how vulnerable sharing your body with others behind a lens can be. I appreciate everyone who has chosen me as the medium for this special gift to themselves. You are so loved.
honestly ive always had a decently healthy relationship with my body, but this is the most healthy love ive had for my body.
when i was 13 or so i remember buying cellulite cream for my thighs. like... i clearly did not know what cellulite really was lmfao.
i think everyone has their own journey of self love. ive been in relationships with ppl (friends, family, lovers) that either made ppl feel bad about body hair, or made ME feel bad about it. + now, im in the healthiest relationship ive had, friend+lover wise, that ive had in the longest. + he understands my journey of self love. i would shave my under arms so much i would get constant painful cysts and honestly ive never been this comfortable with my body hair, not to say ill keep this up forever, but im getting more + more comfortable with not always needing to get rid of my hair.
I give everything on the field…But, I always remember that education is key to a man’s success…New languages, Football tactics, new strategies… I learn every day to become a better version of myself… #OkMen #maté
I live for dat spooky szn 🎃🖤