This morning was like every other. My eyes struggled to open as I dragged myself from the threaded waves of bed sheets. A grunt, or three, I make my way into the land of the living—a brightly lit house brimming with the kind of optimism only my 10 and 5-year-old can bring through an early morning sunrise—a place that feels more unfamiliar, yet more comfortable, with every passing day. My feet drag, arms just weighted appendages, while the ache in my chest awakens, emboldened by the start of another day; a new day with new beginnings and hopes, or a new day with more of the same.
Through the first cup of coffee, I’m the most unlikable protagonist: angry and restless for no real reason, but also every reason in the same breath. The series of motions adds to the gravity crushing my bones. My children sense it. They keep their distance until my eyes pop wide open, but even still, there will be an emotional barrier for some time. Until the grog completely fades (it never really does). Until something shifts my perspective.
#depression #anxiety #sad #depressed #mentalhealth #suicide #depressionquotes #mentalillness #suicidal #love #bipolar #cutting #selfharm #sadness #quotes #alone #sadquotes #pain #broken #bpd #lonely #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealthawareness #aesthetic #anorexia #bipolardisorder #scars #selfhate #ptsd #bhfyp
I’m so excited about all of the new products announced at convention! 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻
. 💛Turmeric essential oil
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💛Yarrow/Pom essential oil
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💚doTERRA® Kids Collection
💛Natural Deodorant with doTERRA Balance®
💛doTERRA® Spa Hydrating Body Mist
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Can you believe how many new products there are? .
What new product do you want to know more about??
. *Official product launch dates coming soon!
For some years now I have been dealing with my stress and anxiety. But it wasn't always like that, I used to be a person who was not very bothered by the outcome of things.. or maybe I was just more confident. I can really pin point the moments that started this reaction in me nevertheless it is still something I struggle with. If you have ever experienced moments when you feel like you are losing control of your life, as if anything could happen in the next moment, as if you have no way out of a problem and this feeling makes you unable to proceed normally with your day, then you know what I am talking about. Most of these years my weapon has always been my own thoughts.. I'd reason myself out of it. sometimes your feelings are too overwhelming and you can't just snap out of it so I have tried these AntiX capsules from @power.focus
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#stress #anxiety #fightstress #fightanxiety #motivational #positivity #pisitivelife #nostress #nopressure #lovelife #takeiteasy
(PTW!) Angststörung. Viele Nichtbetroffene wissen nicht, was genau es damit auf sich hat und zu was so eine Störung tatsächlich in der Lage ist. Dazu fällt mir ein Beispiel meiner eigenen Erfahrungen ein, was es vielleicht für den einen oder anderen etwas verständlicher macht, welches Ausmaß das ganze erreichen kann. Vor etwas mehr als 2 1/2 Jahren, als ich noch mit meinem damaligen Freund zusammen war, beschloss ich, aus körperlichen Gründen, die Pille abzusetzen. Wie manche vielleicht wissen, kann es danach durchaus normal sein, dass es mehrere Monate dauern kann, bis die Periode wieder einsetzt, was bei mir eben auch der Fall war. Soweit eigentlich kein Problem. Aber! Ich war schon immer ziemlich paranoid, wenn ich meine Tage mal etwas später bekam und dachte immer sofort, ich sei schwanger, was damals (und auch jetzt noch) der absolute Horror für mich bedeutete. Denn: Ich bin psychisch labil, habe keinen Job, demnach kein festes Einkommen, wohne noch bei meinen Eltern und bin allgemein noch verhältnismäßig unselbstständig und vor allem finanziell noch sehr abhängig von meinen Eltern. Ein Kind zu bekommen, wäre demnach, so hart das vielleicht klingt, nur noch eine weitere Last, mit der ich nicht klarkommen würde. Selbst eine Adoption oder Abtreibung (worauf es vermutlich am ehesten hinauslaufen würde), würde mich ziemlich wahrscheinlich noch mehr belasten, wenn nicht sogar in gewisser Weise traumatisieren. So, da war ich nun, mit meinen damals 20 Jahren, und bekam meine Periode nicht. Auf der einen Seite wusste ich natürlich, dass das am Absetzten der Pille liegen könnte bzw. sehr wahrscheinlich daran lag! Die Wahrscheinlichkeit, tatsächlich schwanger zu sein, war so so so (!) unfassbar gering, es hätte nahezu an ein Wunder grenzen müssen, wenn es wirklich so gewesen wäre. Aber die Angst ist gemein. Die Angst heftet sich an jede noch so kleine Wahrscheinlichkeit. Und diese war winzig. Und hat ausgereicht, um gefundenes Fressen für die Angst zu sein. Tag für Tag, Woche für Woche steigerte ich mich immer mehr hinein. Ich bildete mir teilweise sogar schon Schwangerschaftssymptome ein. (Weiter in den Kommentaren.)
when you were repeatedly told that you don't amount to anything or will never achieve anything throughout childhood... then it takes a ton of courage now in adulthood to start dreaming about a bigger and better future for yourself... you're worthy of a joyous & fulfilling life #cptsd #depression #anxiety
⭐️ motivation for today is to remember who I am is not defined by someone’s opinion of me ⭐️
It's time to view yourself, others and the world differently
We generally make conclusions and assumptions about others, even if they are subconscious, by seeing with our eyes only. This is when you take things at face value, judging them on what you think you see and based on mindless thoughts
Once we have seen with our eyes, we then see with reasoning. This is our intellectual approach and is based on our beliefs and experiences, our observations and our own theories
Many people stop there, and refuse to look through the heart. Seeing through the heart is open, reflective, non-judgmental and goes further than face value. It forces us to view others truthfully and to seek to understand and accept what we see before us
Try today to view those around you without judgment and without bias. If you find yourself thinking about them in any other way other than a fellow human being and with love, question yourself and ask yourself why and how you came to those conclusions and what exactly the truth of the situation really is
The depth of your breath is directly proportionate to the calmness of your mind ✡️☘️📿 The further you go down the rabbit hole the more you realise that our ancestors knew so much more about truly living than us. 😇☮️🌿 This weekend take some time for yourself, to be silent, to be grateful, to breathe! Let go of everything you think you need to be, and dive deep into who you are✨🍁 into the magic of now.
Feed your senses with aromatic plants and resins that our ancestors used to reach altered States of consciousness 🌱🌸🍁 it's all available to you right here. Out beyond the ideas of rightdoings and wrongdoings, what does you soul need?
Stressed to all hell😖 #anxiety
keeping me awake
An affirmation is just a thought that you repeatedly think. Most people unconsciously choose negative affirmations on a daily basis such as; “I’m not good enough” “I’m too fat/thin/tall/short” “They are better than I am”...fill in yours.
Telling yourself affirmations like this on a regular basis not only negatively impacts your life, it begins to feel so true that it’s hard to believe anything else. Which is why people often struggle when we ask them to use positive affirmations to pattern interrupt their thoughts by changing the neuro-pathway in the brain.
Take the affirmation challenge just for a week, everyday affirm to yourself that you are enough/confident/healthy - whatever it is that you are missing. Affirmations alone are not a miracle cure but they can be an integral part in changing unwanted behaviours and thoughts. Give it a try for yourself.
#atriba #holistichealth #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #mindsetcoaching #nlp #affirmations #negativethoughts #takecontrol #changeyourmindsetchangeyourlife #letushelp
I found love,
Where it wasn't supposed to be.
Right in front of me.
Talk some sense to me.
Amber Run | I Found
Morning snack I’m going to eat at uni, very banana-themed🍌 Almost weekend, yay🙃 I have to study though, because my midterms start next week. I’m also going to meet one of my best friends, which should be fun. I hope you all have a great day!❤️
i’ve never really dealt with #anxiety
like this before and i have no idea what to do!! it’s eating away at me!!!
And you don't know what you've got until it's gone.
And you don't know who to love until you're lost.
And you don't know how to feel until the moment's passed.
I wish you'd live like you're made of glass.
We got work in the morning,
But it's nearly 5AM.
Is this really what we envisioned?
We won't be 21 again.
Amber Run | 5AM
I'm sorry but I'd rather be getting high than watching my family die.
I put your mother through hell.
Don't you mind?
I hurt your brother as well.
Don't you mind?
Don't you mind?
Oh I was thinking 'bout killing myself.
Don't you mind?
I love you.
Don't you mind,
Don't you mind.
The 1975 | Me
Trope Two of Innumerable :: SEPT:0015:2018
Scrutiny's hand lost its clutch for one whole moment.
Sadly it did not lose the address.
Shoulders feeling warm without any premonition.
A trial with no suit or crystal dress.
We’re honored to share Ep1 on IGTV ❤️
Learn how to be Brave in face of Fear ✊
Thank you to all who Loved ❤️
and Believed In Us ❤️🙏❤️
We couldn’t find Self Love....
And now We can Love Others ❤️🙏❤️
Thank You for You 😋🙏❤️
We Love You ❤️
Sometimes you gotta be Silly.
Sometimes we just have to Jump.
If you're so prone,
To accidents and misunderstandings,
You may accidentally,
Misinterpret honesty for selfishness.
We're two human beings,
American Football | I'll See You When We're Both Not So Emotional
Went back home in the winter.
Moved into my parents’ house.
And walked the hallways like a stranger.
Still haven’t figured anything out.
Cause I still don’t know what to do.
Last year I swore I’d make a noose,
In the lights,
Hang out in the gutter,
Decorate my neck with the colored bulbs,
So that everyone would laugh at me,
Laugh at me,
Laugh at me.
When you drive around the neighborhood in your SUV,
Looking for a holiday display with your family,
And there I’ll be in the yard,
Happier spending December,
Without the red pin in my calendar,
Or last call at the Greyhound station.
Cause I can’t hurry up to you,
End of every grueling day,
And for the mundanity we suffer through,
I won’t try to join the pile up on the freeway,
Crash my car into a ditch.
Oh darling I won’t even think of it,
Cause I loved you,
I loved you,
I loved you,
More than I hate me,
I hate me,
I hate me.
Julien Baker | Decorated Lawns