This week has been a hard one in terms of healing so I'm really thankful that I am in a financial position that allows me not only to go to therapy, but to partake in some pretty extravagant self-care afterwards. I bought myself this beautiful bunch of natives after I sobbed my heart out in therapy and saw my GP and then got a blood test. Sometimes self care is about doing the work, and sometimes it's about rewarding yourself for being brave enough to try. I'm also grateful for tofu, @laura_scollensmith
, friends who watch scary movies with me, signing my new contract, Medicare, a really nice nurse named Regan, Brodburger, comfy tshirts, naps, David Tennant, my sweet cuddly puppy, cathartic crying, and lovely people who volunteer their time to make the world a better place.
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Basic AF, but so good 🙌🏻 bok Chou, broccoli, mince, seasoning & cheese.
Depression and anxiety are hard. Like REAL HARD. Some days you are good. Other days it hits you like a ton of bricks. No warning. No real reason. It just hits you. After a few days of not quite feeling like yourself, you start to see those behaviors and emotions resurfacing again. The ones you swore would never return the last time you came out on the other side of the darkness. You try to fight them, but some days they win. Sleeping too much or too little. No desire to do anything, or the need to do everything in one day. Feeling overwhelmed by everything. The feeling of total panic, to the point of not being able to catch your breath. It's awful. All of it.
The good news? It does eventually get better. The bad news? It may not happen overnight. You have to work at it every single day. There is no other choice. You cannot give up. You have to fight for your own happiness because no one is going to do it for you.
Truth is, I never thought I would be the one diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder. Truth is, I never thought I'd be diagnosed with Crohns disease either. While I know these are lifelong battles I will have to fight, I know I will fight with everything I have to get back to as close to myself as I can be. And I will proudly fight, out loud. No shame in my game. Because life can be tough, but darling, so am I! 💜
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Wow!! A whole week with no work on my blog, no instagram posts and about a million ideas running through my head for my newly named ‘Laura’s Nutrition’ venture.
This is a snippet of the running commentary in my brain this morning.... “oooo, there’s quinoa flakes at the back of the pantry I really need to use these in a recipe & whilst on that I really need to find a rice flour recipe to get rid of that too...... I haven’t sprouted seeds in a while, I really need to sprout seeds. Sprouts are really good for you........ Quick, drink more water, I don’t think I’ve had any since breakfast this morning..... I still haven’t finished Marie Kondoeing the house! I really need to finish before Troy gets home next Friday. Are the towels folded as well as Marie Kondo would like? Maybe I should redo the towels & sheets before I start on my clothes?..... Am I spending enough time with Poppy?.. Am I teaching her enough? Is she behind on any skills that she really should know by now?.... Would she be more interested in reading if we did more of it??....” and so on & so on.. IT’s TOO MUCH!!! I have all these thoughts on top of all my ideas for food I want to make, activities to do with Poppy, nutrition info I want to share, fun ways to teach ‘healthy eating’ & sooooo much more. To understate the obvious, I am extremely overwhelmed and this anxiety ridden feeling is my number one reason for procrastination ☝️(number two is probably Instagram) 🤣🤣 Today, I realised, that I just have to start; one step, one word & one thing at a time. I am writing a list (well I’m going to) & I’m going to slowly get things done. I’ll keep adding to this list as thoughts pop up. I will probably cross things off slower than I will add, but I feel better just writing this down and telling my Ig family about this list & these thoughts. Without sounding too philosophical; life is not a race, so instead I’m going to enjoy this overwhelming ride & I will try to take joy in each little step I “eventually” take ✌️